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25`07`2011

2011-07-25T16:50:00.004+08:00

你的快乐会健在被人的痛苦上吗？

sometimes i really wonder why must this happen to me?
hahaha. am i good to bully or because i'm nice?

left with this week work and i'm done with my temporary job.
seriously this time i return to singlun have different views and opinions.
perhaps i'm not bonded with the team anymore, i'm just a TEMPORARY STAFF mah.
guess the next summer term, i definitely will not come back to a/c dept.
this 3 months, most of the time i'm spending on the internet.
waiting for time to pass and to catch up some shows in xinmsn.
next busy thing is to be a clerk to file invoices.
and nothing else le bah.
it might seems easy job but well, as compared to last year.
i would want to return to my area and learned more.
whatever it is, good money isn't it?

birthday is coming real soon and i dont feel excited AT ALL.
planning to go zoo and i think should we?
i feel the urge to go MIA during that day or spend time with some other ppl.
simply, i just dont feel happy at all.
SIGHHHH!~
all i need is just a simple celebration. nothing fancy.
i would want to be the best of myself.. but.. well.
let's see how it goes bah.

isit Monday bluee that causes this negative thoughts?
今天, i'm not happy at all.
- late for work.
- got deduct 1 day salary because i just fulfilled 3 months probation?
- become a filing girl.
- ZOO thingyyyyy, *might seriously cancel it*

just bad bad baddddddd!
hope tmr will not have anymore trouble already. sighhh*

07`07`2011

2011-07-07T17:05:00.002+08:00

有时候，我觉得。。
靠别人，不如靠自己！
当你需要别人帮忙的时候，你才知道他对你的真。
有可能是为难。。
有可能有理由。。
但起码，要尽力。

心情又纳闷，又烦。
好想一个人走一走。。

05`07`2011

2011-07-05T16:52:00.002+08:00

abandon my blog for quite sometime and it's time to be back for blogging.
well, there are several things running through my mind.
but i do not know how to put into words.
my mind is in a total mess. :(

first 6 months of 2011 doesnt went as smooth as i want it to be.
grades for my first year is bad.
relationship faces alot of negative issues.
health not as good as ever.
perhaps a holiday break is needed.

我不知道这么走下去。
需要休息休息。
爱我，恨我，疼我。。
我累了。

11`01`2011

2011-01-11T20:45:00.002+08:00

Hello! I'm BACK!
muhahahahhaha!

yeah, it's been 3 months since i last blog.
my blog is going to get abandon by me soon~~
just that memories i had with this blog make me consider the second time.

well, I'm back to school after my one month holiday.
it's the second week of school and i'm still slacking as much as previous.
seems that i'm getting use to the life i have in SMU.
Term 2 is going to be a pretty busy term due to tons of project work to fulfill.
when handling with projects, i seriously hope to meet/have good project mates.
now our Information System project getting tougher and more work load.
hope my team mates does their homework! :)

Term 1 grade was out in December.
pretty happy with the outcome due to the fact that i didnt really study.
i'm pure lucky with good prof! :)
this is the motivation for me in SMU to continue and strive harder. ^^

Erwin and I had been together for more than 1 year already.
it's really quite a long period for me.
first time, first relationship for such a long time.
he really dote me and tolerate me.
i'm thankful to have him with me with all the hard and good times.
i love him, Tan Erwin Neil. :)

I'm really glad that I have good sister and friends around me all the times.
真心朋友不需要多，一两个就够了！
thank youu! :)

11`10`10

2010-10-11T14:13:00.002+08:00

being only a girl in the boys team doesnt make me feel "WOW"!
my opinions are just like grass.
trying my best to help the team but i like cant help.
need somebody to like agree with me before my ideas are "approve"
hais! i feel so sians with IS101.
please, after today i will be done with the project!!

just some thoughts.
i hope i can pull through my uni not with very good results.
but i will do my best!
with all the sacrifices that others made for me! :)

10`07`2010

2010-10-07T06:22:00.004+08:00

first of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAY MEI FONG!!
stay pretty always and faster get engaged with Alvin Tan! :)
have baby and get your true dragon baby wish come true.
haha!!

went st james powerhs to celebrate her birthday.
was lady night and there's so many people!!
almost need to queue up just to enter.
but MF got her bf to open up Martel and sign member.
at least managed to squeeze in all her invited guest.

at first, i'm quite reluctant to go.
but at the end got persuade by KIM and i went in.
didnt drink at all bcuz they afraid that i will get drunk.
from the one past experience, i learn not to drink.
haha! at least i'm not as drunk as that small girl now.
she is sleeping at my home, just outside the toilet.
i'm afraid she will mess up my place with her puke,
so i decided to place her right outside my toilet.
more convenient for me to clean up too.
okay, i'm a bad friend. =X

sometimes ppl just need to get drunk to let their mind clear.
and indeed, it's the best way to release their stress.
i do get drunk before to clear my mind.
but it's just a moment thing and you will be back to reality.
the moment when she cry out loud, it's just break my heart.
why she is like so nice yet got bullied?
i could sense her sadness and understand how she feel.
the only thing i could say is time will heal it.
我真的觉得很无耐。
i just can stay by herself to give her the warm and love.
just hope that after this time, she knows what she is doing.

well, it's been a week since i hear from Erwin.
last two days i received miss calls, dunno isit him.
sighhh* i miss him.
i really feel that without him, everything is just like so empty.
please let the time pass faster and let him return back to me.
looking at the same sky, will he be missing me?
dear, i miss youuu badly. =(

你几时才会回来？

03'10'2010

2010-10-03T15:50:00.005+08:00

haha! I'm currently workin yet i'm blogging.
So sians! No sales. :(

my eyes keep twitching this few days.
Wondering is there anything wrong especially i'm quite worried for erwin.
Hope he is safe n sound over at walabi.
I want to see him back safety in piece. :)

i miss that fat sheep. :(
even thought i hate him to the max most of the time.
But think abt it, how many guys can tolerate his girlfriend temper.
Especially when i'm those hot tempered kind.
Most importantly, he dote n care for me like a princess.
What else can i ask for when a guy loves me so deeply.
He changed n even quit smoking.
Well, may not totally is because of me.
But at least the difference i saw in him.
It's been 10 months we got together, more to come along. :)

i love you, baby.

02`10`2010

2010-10-02T01:07:00.002+08:00

OMG! finally i'm free for a week from school!
i'm super tired right now cos i only slept one hr last night.
and here, i'm still blogging at this late night.

my blog is getting dusty and i'm quite reluctant to share my experience too.
there might not be a single one visiting my blog except for Tan Erwin Neil?
HAHA!

right now, i only feel like sleeping.
just wanna update this small little space.
and telling that FAT SHEEP! TAKE CARE IN WALABI LA!
I WANT SEE YOUR "NICE BODY!" THANK YOUU! :)

good nites peeps.
shall blog soon!

01`09`2010

2010-09-01T22:11:00.004+08:00

Baby, do you know how much i miss you?

01'08'2010

2010-08-01T16:41:00.002+08:00

My last day of 21, I'm not happy.
Once reach the adult age, there's so many things to fan.
Hais. I just need a real good rest.
I want to flee from here.
Taking a break.

28`07`2010

2010-07-28T12:45:00.000+08:00

i'm left with 2 more days after today.
out of SLP and SLG!
omg* that's my wish since i first stepped in.
finally after 5 monthhs! =D

since i'm free right now,
i decided to share one article that i saw in xinmsn.

Flirting techniques every man should know

i personally find it very funny.
cos some of the action just like what erwin do it to me.
HAHA!
is he FLIRTING?

just like the article says "Smile like you mean it. The most effective smiles come from within so think of a genuinely pleasant moment in your life as an 'inner prompt' and flash both sets of teeth to show you're genuine."

just like what i always tell him,
i love his smile alot.
but i do not know what's the reason behind, now i understand.
it's GENUINE! that's the word. :)

"Never appear too interested. Locking eyes and smiling is clearly the most obvious sign you're interested in a woman but never over do it. "With the flirtatious smile, the flirter should briefly show enjoyment, gaze away, then back," advises Daniel McNeill, author of The Face: A Guided Tour.

Looking away isn't just an effective tease, it's also a powerful flirting technique because it sends out a conflicting signals, forcing the object of your affection to look closer at you to get reassurance that you're actually interested."

yes! Previously erwin was doing that.
acting BLURR and look away.
then with his killer smile.
i'm dead. HAhA!

it's really interesting when i was reading the aricle.
but if i were to put across what i feel and understand,it might be otherwise.
plus i have limited range of words to use.
so... HAHA! for you to take a look.
perhaps you might feel it before with your partners!

birthday is coming real soon.
but like i say, i'm not very interested.
cos it marks another chapter of my life.
PLUS IT MEANS I'M GETTING REAL OLDDDD!
time to think abt it.
i'm turning 22 after Sunday.
with my next 4 years of education, i will be 26 by then.
got to work for 2 years or more before marriage, 28.
2 years honeymoon with my partner, 30.
time to get baby, 31.
faint*

i'm really old by then. :(
now i dont wish to grow up.
cos time pass too quickly.

if you haven pass your 21, please enjoy your life.
after 21 is just like you taking a lighting train.
soon, it will over and time to get those real business shit.
before 18, enjoy your life to the fullest!
that's the way you should! :)
before 16, studyyyy please!
qualifcation in singapore is damn important.
so please and of course enjoy your childhood life.

since i'm going back study soon.
i should enjoy my life as a student first! :)
cheers!!
time for break! MAKAN TIMEEE~~

26`07`2010

2010-07-26T15:25:00.003+08:00

sometimes, i just feel i'm like an idiot.
dunno what the f*** am i rushing?
now i got the pain but it is too late.
if i control myself, i wouldnt get this stupid rubbish!
damn* really headache now.
sighhh.

yesterday i almost get shocked in my life.
if no one notice my grandfather's condition, we will really lose him.
luckily my uncle is smart enough to ask.
but it makes me realise, i haven been going over to visit my grandparents.
it's time to find time to go over when i'm free.

arghhh! just one more week.
but i dont feel any happiness but stress and STRESS!
money is really a very big issue in singapore.
why cant we just live a simple life?
sighhh* :(

NOT HAPPY!
NOT HAPPY!
NOT HAPPY!

16`07`2010

2010-07-16T13:38:00.004+08:00

my irritating fellow, whom is my baby is sleeping damn soundly now at HOME!
i almost thought he got into "something" in army.
that's why he didnt text me in the morning nor even NOW!
till....

I SAW THE TAG ON MY TAGBOARD!!

grrrr!~
he almost scared me off la!
zzzzz.

but indeed, sometimes when one person dont text or reply.
you will start to think otherwise and have alot of wild thoughts.
however, when the person keep texting. it will become nuisance.
but that's how a relationship started, isn't it?

just like what "ERWIN HUBBY" says, it's going to be our 8 month soon.
i have never thought we will came till that far.
with so much misunderstanding and quarrels.
but well, we both are really working hard for this relationship.
and i'm proud to say, i love this silly boyfriend of mine.
even he is just SO STUPID...
i really hope he's the one for my life. :)

okay enough for ERWIN!

Mr Soon, my RP facilitator asked me. "Do you see yourself in UNI?"
if you know me that well, you know i dont see myself in there.
i know my standard, i know my financial status.
i know eventually i wont make it till that far.
but now, i'm going in SMU in a month's time.
it marks another journey of mine which i have never thought off.
today, i'm really happy of where i am.
even thought there's alot of drawbacks.
but i want to make it through!! JIAYOUU! :)

shujun! i never forget youu OKIES!
you are so busy at work! i msg you in msn, you also never reply me! :(
i think we need to find time to catch up.
so many things you have MISS!
hahahaha! stay happy arhh! see youu soon! :)

2 more weeks and i will take a breakk!
i will want to rest and take a good good rest!
backk to workk~~

08`07`2010

2010-07-08T17:15:00.008+08:00

i seriously dont understand why it will happen.
it's really a very serious problem that we will be facing.
the confidence to you immediately drop to ~~zero.~~
i dont dare to even think abt the future.
~~NO MORE HIGH HOPE!~~ just nothing.

i'm a selfish person, i do admit.
when you sees smth very important to you, will you let go?
it's a bad time to me now, i cant afford it.
but you still dare to open your mouth and ask.

very disheartening feeling.
even how much i want to help, but i cant.
i just feel damn bloody pissed of.
with you and with myself.

indeed, i'm so ASHAMED.
i asked myself, why are you so STUIPD?
HIAS, it's really a bad day and bad month.
i just hope everything will end soon.
so sicked!

this is how i feel, at this point in time..!

07`07`2010

2010-07-07T17:05:00.003+08:00

since i'm so free in office, i decided to blog.
before i start falling asleep!
yesterday is my last time handling with CLOSING OF AP(account payable)!
i only can say that it's very tedious in doing closing.
have to check this and that, once done cannot un-do.
only way is to reverse the entry out and do it again.
especially with the new system, seriously can DIE!

but i indeed learn alot especially the AX (ERP) system.
it helps to improve whole process of the company.
especially manufacturing company, from the SALES ORDER to the FINISHED GOODS.
in between processes everyone plays an important role.
if we didnt communicate with each other, FINANCE wouldnt know what others is doing.
not even OTHERS will know what finance is doing.
with the system, it helps everyone to know what everyone is doing!
but before that everyone should ensure what is their role and scope.

a good exposure for me to learn and to understand how the system works.
it adds on to my future career and gives me better knowledge of AX system.
hmmm, maybe in the future i might join ibizcs? HAHA!

life is really a routine.
all i know is that i have 86,440 everyday.
but i didnt spend it wisely.
perhaps in singapore, ppl out there is like this.
NO LIFE!~
all we know is to work because we need to eat, we need shelter.
if we dont have money, our needs can't even be sastisfied.

well well, got to plan my sat and sun this month fruitful!
out with girls and boyfriend. :)
PROMISE will make time alright!
but before that, i need plenty of rest can?
hees!

YAHSHI! your birthday coming real SOON le wor!
haha. are you excited?
hope you have a BLAST that night!
see YOU, HUIMIN and LORENZO! <3!

soon, my birthday will be coming.
and i think i shall plan for dinner session soon.
hmmm, TWINNIE LORENZO! shall we have our's celebration together?
not on the actual day.
perhaps somewhere earlier?
how's that?
of course with yahshi and huimin LA!

will spend my actual birthday with my usual cliques!
this year, it's going to be way special.
cos i have my <3!
it's my very first time i have my boyfriend with me on BIRTHDAY!
woOOTS!

start preparing and i'm going for steamboat session soon!
hahaha! with my BONIA colleagues.
OHHH! how sad it can be, my last time seeing them. :(

15`06`2010

2010-06-15T17:08:00.000+08:00

thinking that i have to leave BONIA after my last day next week,
i realise that afterall, i did have a wonderful experience over there.
even though i did have lots of unhappiness and grumbles.
but when you have to face the fact that you got to leave, it's disheartening.
plus it's already a rountine for me to work over there.
sighhhh*

very big blow to me because i just got into SMU and i'm jobless.
seriously it's going to be a tough uphill journey for me through this uni years.
need to be hardworking and find jobs, regardless of the pay already.
first, have to feed myself.
arghhh*, i'm just so unluckyyy.

recent account job facing transistion problems.
there's many follow up have to follow.
many things have to do.
but i just do not know what is the many all about.
kinda stress when you cant find the right one to take over you.
just got to leave it like it is. =X
since i'm just a temp staff. hees.

i do not know whether is the right choice to be in SMU right at this point.
thinking of giving up..
but at the same time dont want disappoint my family.
so i really DON'T KNOW!
sighhh*
really stress lehh. :((
haven go in school already stress, go in school, *can't imagine*.

i'm happy for HUIMIN!
hees. now her turn to find her 爱爱!
must 幸福喔! =)))

can i take a long break from work?
i'm pretty exhausted. :(
rest, sleep is so important, i need it!

acting busy in office is so tiring.
luckily i got a blog, so that i can rant all my problems here!
hees. at the same time.
acting to be a good girl doing her work.
in fact, she is blogging. =X
HAHAHAA!

MR ERWIN TAN, leave me alone and went to outfield already.
for just 2days.
but i already missing him. :(

plans to buy new phone seems to hold back due to $$.
$$ is so important in singapore.
really cannot dont have.
$$ now is a big issue to me. sighh*
any part time intro?? hees.

17`05`10

2010-05-17T11:33:00.005+08:00

it's been donkey days since i last updated my dusty blog.
my life seems to have a very systematic routine.

MONDAY - FRIDAY --> work at SINGLUN & go HOME.
FRIDAY NIGHT - SATURDAY --> dating with boyfriend/family/friends.
SUNDAY --> work at BONIA & go HOME.

*TADAHHH* that's my wonderful schedulee!
it's so NO LIFE! haha.
no time for myself, even SLEEP also no time.
really exhuasted for the past 1 month.

last week just ended with closing of my accouts.
it's really a hectic week. OT OT and OT!
super tiring when you face with figures and invoices.
can get crazyyy especially when you are new and others also NEW.
totally will get mad. haha.
but well, it's just another 3 more months to go! =D

sometimes, i wonder, do age really matters in a relationship?
recently our relationship face alot of problems.
even it's really very small matter but i find it hard to even overcome.
once you just dont overcome the problem, problem will still lies and exist.
and i cant cross over the barrier.
perhaps all we need is time and trust and communication.
but talking to a young chap really makes me pukeee! HAHA!
cos communication break down in between and he dont understand!!! zZZzzZz!
patient is needed for me. HAHA!

if he is going to be a challenge for us.
i really hope that we can hold onto each other and pull through it.
it's going to be a real tough challenge for me and you.

i'm officially GRADUATE from RP!! *weets weets!*
3 years not long yet is neither short.
alot of things i have learnt throughout this years,
either it's from facilitators or friends.
without each and single one of them, i wouldnt know how to appreciate what i am now.
whether you are nice or nasty to me, i sincerely thanks you.

another journey is ahead of me.
i have to really "bite on my teeths" and pull it through.
just another 4 more years.
i want to prove that i'm able to get it done and yes! I'M GOING TO! =D
being able to let my family and friends proud of, is what i want to achieve.
support pleaseee! hees! =))

for all who is going for uni! let's JIAYOU!

well well well, HAHA!
i'm blogging this in the OFFICE.
cos my colleague is not here and hence eating SNAKE time!
hahahahaha!
i'm a very bad staff cos all i know is when to go home or eat snake! =X

30`03`2010

2010-03-30T22:20:00.003+08:00

last few days was trying to blog out some post.
however the blogger seems like not working.
don't want me to post.
now, it allows me to post my entry.
but i dont know what to write. LOL.

alot of things had happen towards my sisters and bf.
there are so many things i wanna tell them.
but somehow, sometimes, words just hard to be convey.
the only thing i can say, i will always be there for you.

SMU shortlisted me for an interview.
was pretty excited for it however thinking abt the fees~
i just give a second thought.
wondering should i continue to further my studies or work first.
perhaps now is not the right time to decide
i should then think abt it after i'm confirmed.

closing period.
work is rushing through my desk.
i'm flooded with papers, figures, words, systems and etc.
extremely tired**

going for rest right now!
good nights! =D

24`03`2010

2010-03-24T21:50:00.005+08:00

不知不觉，一个月又过去了！
虽然我们常吵架，闹一闹。
但是我只有越来越爱你。
我不说出口是因为我真的不会表达对你的感情。
可能是因为以前一旦放下我真心，我都会受伤害。
所以现在我选着放在我心里。

no matter how bad we had in times.
i understand is bcos we care for each other.
what we wanted to have is a lasting relationship.
and continue, we shall hold onto each other to make it realistic.
okay? :)

谢谢你一直以来的宽容和爱。
i love you, Erwin.

FRIDAY!! i had a great time meeting up with sisters!
because 我们终于要出国了！！
我很期待也很开心，说真的。
因为能和她们做朋友是我的福气。
能和她们一起出去玩，更是我的荣幸！
希望那个时候快点的到来！

做人真的很难。
我们要考虑的事情很多。
当我们犯错，不是每一个人都有第二次的机会。
所以吗~~ 做人要对得起天地良心。=）

SATURDAY!! our POST reunion dinner!
yahshi, huimin & twinnie lorenzo.
i really had a great dinner session.
and i'm sure, we will have it once in a while.
please make sure everyone dont change mobile contact okay!!
even is changed, please inform me! thank youu.

lorenzo, please LOOK clearly before you ask me to remove smth.
if not horr! you will be joke of the day! muhahahhaa.
and it's super funny when you ask me that question.
i will try to remove la, but i dont guarantee it can come out!
LMAO!

pictures are inside my facebook!!
hees.

工作慢慢的上了轨道。
但是我很担心。
因为过一些日子，就没人教我了！
我因该会死得很惨。
是否应该跟他们一起走呢？
真的是伤脑筋！！

results are out.
as expected but definitely abit disappointing too.
well, i cant turn back time.
so i have to look forward and move forward.
in future, i will put in my best de. =D
cheers to everyone who did well especially YAHSHI!
CONGRATS TO YOUUU!! definitely my HUIMIN also do well la. haha.
twinnie, i dont dare to ask youu. cos i scared hurt you.
so yah! just CONGRATS THAT FINALLY YOU HAD OFFICIALLY COMPLETE YOUR STUDIES IN RP!
hahahahaha.

ohwell!
是时间睡觉了！
晚安！！
good nights!

18`03`2010

2010-03-18T21:03:00.007+08:00

好讨厌喔!
今天是我第三天在星轮工作吗。
为什么要对我的期望那么高？
人都会犯错，何况是新人！
不是我不要造你的方法去做，而是要让我学习什么是错。

我真的很不喜欢有人一直念我!!
很恶心！！！
好啦,我不要一直念也是!哈哈哈!

当你看到 Uncle, Auntie 牵手的时候。你们会想什么？
当你看到好像小孩子在牵手的时候，你又会想到什么？
当你看到我们这种年龄的人在谈恋爱，你会有什么感觉？

最近我都会有一些感想。
对小孩子，就是会觉得“玩玩的啦”。
对我们的年龄的，就是会有一些些的羡慕。
对Uncle, Auntie 更是感觉到辛福！

每个人面对感情的处理方式都会不一样。
是看你这么去想，去面对。
如果一个感情失败，不是你的错。
而是，你们有缘做朋友，没缘做情侣。
当你学会放下的时候，有另一个彩虹等着你发掘！！ =D

明天是星期五了！
好开心啊！因为隔天我就可以休息了！！
也代表我的宝贝可以跟我说话了！

even it's only the third day of work.
but i just feel like quitting already ~
sighhhhh*

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17`03`2010

2010-03-17T22:18:00.002+08:00

真得很讨厌看电脑！！
我的头脑都要爆炸了！
人老了就是这样，不能面对电脑太长的时间。
不然我的头就痛得要死!

人比鬼更要恐怖，你觉得呢？
我觉得人有太多面了。
你不知道，到底那个人是不是对你好，还是想害你？
办公室的'斗争'真的是我不我想面对的一个环境。
但是每一个办公室就是这样！
比如我的 BONIA 就已经是一个战阵的地方。
人不可以和睦共处吗？不能开开心心的吗？

作工的时间终是过得比较快。
让我对下一个天亮更期待！
因为‘星期六’就快到了！！
哈哈哈哈！！

我想陈尔伟啦！
真希望能听到他的声音和看到他的身影！

16`03`2010

2010-03-16T00:03:00.004+08:00

rest for me is never enough.
even baby didnt book out last saturday due to his confinement.
i did not really spend time sleeping.
partly because i'm used to going out during saturday's already.
and i'm so bloody tiredd.

thinking of this, i find that time really flies.
i have been resting for like a month plus.
now is my turn to contribute to the society again.
it's very and super reluctant.
but because SINGAPORE is a place where MONEY is the key issue.
i have to get back on my feet and back to work!

well well well,
thanks for my beloved ladies concern.
*you know who you are*
i'm perfectly fine in the relationship. HAHA!
things settle, settled.
just that you know, JASMINE LOVES TO GRUMBLEEEEEE~
haha.

1 day pass, missing baby pressence of calling or messaging.
hope he is doing well and fine for his outfield.
plus he really need to take good care of himself and BEHAVE!
rawrrrrr!! counting down to 4 days!
hees. i just hope that this sat he could book out and go out together.
hasnt seen him for around 2 weeks le.
*sighhhhhh*
all thanks to him and his confinement!

8.30am marks the new beginning.

陈尔伟! i miss youuuuuuuuuuu.

14`03`2010

2010-03-14T01:49:00.000+08:00

当两人在一起久了，就一定会有磨差和不快乐。
有时侯就是意见不合所以才会吵架。
有时候就是会为了小事而吵。
有时候就会莫名其妙的吵。

可能就是爱情的考验吧。
让彼此想一想是不是适合对方？
如果不适合，就快点知道不是更好吗？

多我而言，吵架是闭经的过程。
只是看我们这么样去面对。
但吵架会让我觉得很累!
会想放弃的时候。

放心啦!!
我只是说说,不是争对我的感情.
只是有时会想一想.
哈哈!!

有点累了.
明天还要工作,真是的!!
闷!!

10`03`2010

2010-03-10T01:03:00.004+08:00

i better blog something before HUIMIN bored till death,
while she's having SAP lesson.
muhahahaha!
please be honored again! LOL!

had been sending out resumes recently to direct employers.
but it seems like responding not so well arh.
not receiving any calls.
sighhh*
and i have no choice, but stuck at wonderful BONIA.
is getting worst when you think that pay is just so "peanuts"
yet you are working like a "dog"
but still no "ghost" come and buy from youu.
i'm just dragging my feet over each day.
sighhhh**

had a dunno consider big or small fight with baby last few days.
was really pissed off to the maximum.
until i really cannot take it but to BLAR everything out.
whether he wants to wake up or not, is up to him already.
just tired of nagging like an AH MA!

sometimes i will remind myself of his age.
at that point of time, i'm also playful and wont even bother to think.
but sometimes, i just wish that he will be like a grown up.
just to help me think too.

well well well, going off for rest alr.
if not my eye bags is going darker!
good nights!

i circle youuuu my turtle baby! =D

26`02`2010

2010-02-26T01:32:00.001+08:00

ohwell, i received a very "good" present from baby.
he is being confine for the week.
it means that i'm going to be lonely for this coming SATURDAY!! =((
seriously when i heard the news, my heart just sinks.
but still i have to accept it that i cant see him. =((

hope he had learned his lesson.
control his temper no matter what happens.
i dont want him to be confine again or even worst, being charged!
gonna NAGGG at him to the max when i see him!!
grrrrrr!!

PC make me felt so disappointing in him. seriously.
i wonder how he can put on a mask for the past 5 years without fail.
first time i totally see WRONG in a guy.
he is so disappointing that i feel like beating him up.
i really thought he is a nice guy that i can really pass kim to him.
but who knows, he is really a jerk!
just to cover himself, he said bad things abt kim.
he even have the cheek to say kim don't trust him when he do such a thing behind her.
seriously, i'm damn bloody pissed off la.
and family members always support their own people.
but LOOK in ppl's heart, who is the one who really cherish?
and who is the one who is doing those unglam things?
真的不知道说设么才好。
过去就让他过去！没有必要再想为什么会这样。
想你的未来有我和美凤在你身边！！
加油我的妹妹！！

i'm going to rest already.
feeling abit upset la.
but well, just take it as the first time he book in bah! =D

24`02`2010

2010-02-24T23:34:00.005+08:00

SURPRISE!! i'm back! haha.
it's been really a long long time since i last blog.
reason being, i have no time!
previously, DATING, WORKING, STUDYING!
you tell me, where will have extra time to even blog.
not enough sleep liao lo!

today i've decided to blog.
because it's my baby and me the 3rd Month!
it should not be anything special.
but to me, it is.

finally after ages, i have really settled down.
from a small young girl who always flirt around,
to a grown up lady who really cherish relationship.
i would say, none of my relationship last more than 3 months.
only particular one which lasted around 6 months but was on and off.
so is something memorable.
and most importantly, i have never had any negative feelings towards this r/s.

right now, i'm really happy to have baby with me.
even he is 3 years younger than me.
but his way of treating r/s really let me learn alot.
towards r/s, i'm always very 小孩子. cux i dunno how to handle it.
but he will be there to teach me.
so well, thankful that he keep on will 让我.
hees! hope he still continue to do that! =)

on the other hand, my girl kim is suffering.
is hurtful to see her like this.
but there is nothing we can do or to help.
is hard to let down a 5 year r/s.
5years leh, 说长不长，说短不短.
now i only hope that she will stand up and move on.
cux i'm really not in the position to comfort or to say anything.
just hope that she will be strong.
no matter what, me and meifong will be right there for her!
加油!! TEE KIM CHOOO!!
不要为了一个"屎" . 放弃整个"屎地" !
i think you will understand la!
cited from my god-father! =P

i better go and rest now.
currently having big eye bags.
good nites! hope you guys can see my updates soon! =D

Tan Erwin Neil, i love youuu! <3 muackks!!

24`12`09

2009-12-24T01:14:00.003+08:00

just few more hours. =D

early wishes to ..
wish youu guys have a MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS! <3

18`12`09

2009-12-18T01:36:00.006+08:00

"I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you, how good you look when you smile, and how much I love your laugh. I daydream about you every moment, replaying pieces of our conversation, laughing at funny things that you said or did. I’ve memorized your face and the way that you look at me. I catch myself smiling again at what I imagine. I can’t wait to see you again and I wonder what will happen the next time we are together. I really hope you know how much I cherish the time that we get to spend together."

http://runawaytrain.tumblr.com

what i quoted above really fit into how i feel.
sometimes, we just cant find the right word to say.
or i should say, i'm not that english person.
so it's hard for me to construct proper sentence nor phrase that well.
that is the reason why, my blog is always "singlish or broken english."

counting down to 6 days more.

just now he text me.
the first text i received from him when he is in the army.
i'm really surprised and super happy.
cux he didnt managed to bring a spare phone with him.
past few days, he used his bunkmate phone to ring me up.
today, when i was browsing through his previous messages in the mrt.
while i was going home alone that time.
his text message was in my inbox.
at first i thought i saw wrongly perhaps i think too much.
but it was really him.

the immediate happiness i had is something i cant describe.
all i know after that was "raining liao"
i'm just overjoyed by the text.
perhaps we might not know each other very long.
or should say, i maybe unknowingly put too much feeling inside already.
till unconsciously, i fell into the trap of love.

compared to previous relationships,
i'm not as scared or worried.
maybe he is in army, so cant interact much with girls! HAHA.
but he give me a secure feeling which other didnt.
most importantly, i have learn how to trust and get trusted.
therefore, if there is any unforeseen circumstances.
i hope i know how to handle it.
but of course, i dont want it to happen LAH!

really thanks to his brother.
if he didnt pass him the phone,
i wont received such a great surprise and happiness for the day.
this will make me sleep well for the night.
and smiling throughout the day! =D

15`12`09

2009-12-15T01:40:00.005+08:00

DAY 5 - Without Erwin Tan

each day, waiting for time to pass.
each time, waiting for his call.
every hour, checking on my phone.
every minute, thinking of him.
every seconds, time clicking away.

fast forward time please.

13`12`09

2009-12-13T22:51:00.005+08:00

this is the third day he is away for NS.
i'm really not used to it.

- not used to NOT having his text messages.
- not used to NOT having him around with me.
- not used to NOT call him "ehhh"
- not used to NOT receiving his call.
- not used to NOT seeing his smile.
- not used to NOT saying him silly.
- not used to my life without him.

after the moment he bunk into my life.
most thing i do, is with him around.
now without him, i'm really feeling uneasy.
plus worried for him.
wondering have he eaten or not?
did he sleep well or not?
training tough for him or not?
alot of questions in my mind.
and alot of things i wanna tell him.
but only i can wait till the day he booked out already. :(

12`12`09

2009-12-12T02:02:00.004+08:00

it's my beloved nephew XAN CHEW's birthday! =D
2 years old already.
but yet like a small baby, do not know how to speak properly.
only those single words, such as "CAR" "BUS".
walk also dunno how to walk properly.
just wondering next year, how is he going to be in the APPLE group.
really will laugh like mad.

but no matter what.
i hope he faster grow up.
be healthy.
and happy always.
i love him XAN!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
*even he dunno how to read now, next time i must show him
姑姑 has blog it out OKAY! =)

well well well, seems like good news spread very quickly.
i think my blog is not so dead as i think. :)
it's happy news, so i dont mind sharing with anyone. HEE!

honeymoon period ended already.
simple reason, he is in army le.
i'm counting down 2 weeks the next time i see him. =((

okay la. as requested.
photos are updated with his hair!
HAHAH!
haven captured him BOTAK yet!
so stay tuneee to see his rounddddd face.
LLALALALAL!

*please pardon me with that look! haha. cux very tired after many shots.

anyway, i love this picture alot!
super cuteeee. =))
if you all wanna puke, please horrrr.
haha.

i miss you my dear silly erwin tan!

03`12`09

2009-12-03T13:37:00.003+08:00

HERE I AM TO DO SOME UPDATES!! =D

was pretty busy with work, school plus dating.
HAHA! DATING! - yes!
i'm currently attached to Tan Erwin. (:

well, i would say everything happen too fast.
i didnt slow down and take a look clearly.
but choices had been made.
if it's negative then i will have to learn how to face it.

it may be too early to say or to judge.
but right now at this point in time, i only can tell you guys.
我是开心和幸福的!
honeymoon period mahhhh~~ HAHA!
after honeymoon then perhaps no more liao lo.

what i'm really concern now is how to handle this r/s with studies.
i just left few more weeks right before the school ends and i'm graduate.
right now, we are busy spending time together before he enter to army.
but at the same time, FYP work also have to be completed.
it's really hard for me right now to juggle both.
what i only can say, team mates are really important.
for me, Huimin understands.
if it's other people, i couldnt imagine what they will say.
谢谢你! TAN HUIMIN!

now my wish is that HE faster go in army.
so i can concentrate on my studies!!
what a bad girlfriend hor! hahahahah!
too bad, to me studies are equally important as him.

anyway, that's all for updates.
because nothing much really happen.
so...
this post ends with a...

23`11`09

2009-11-23T22:46:00.003+08:00

this is the question i have been asking myself.
my dear lovely folks (yahshi & val) had been reminding that too.
but i really dunno what will be the answer.
and i wish that time will reveals the truth.

it's pretty hard to solve this question.
as i do not know how to prove it real.
moreover, it happened just a week or so.
hence i cant decide properly.
alot of negative comments i heard.
but i understand is the concerns and care you all giving.
i really wish to face the fact and just move on.
but it seems to stuck in my circles of life.
i hope i can just follow my heart.

all along, i was a da jie in their eyes.
but because of this incident, my status was being questioned.
yes, i have to admit that i'm not a good person when handling r/s.
that's why i'm always the one getting hurt and lots of bad stuff.
this is the side that i dont always show it out.
because i'm a proud person, i cant accept failure.
well, but i only can say.
please trust me that i know what i am doing.
because all i need is your confirmation.
even if it's wrong path that i choose,
let me be the one who face it.
no matter what, your advice will be heed by me.
and i will put a stop if necessary. okay?

(sorry yahshi and val, i just cant control myself! HAHA!)

a person who willing to come over after his work.
a person who willing to wait for me till i knock off.
a person who willing to change his shift just to be with me.
a person who willing to come over late a night just to ask me.
a person who willing to do alot of silly things just to make me happy.
a person who is calling me all day long just want to hear my voice.
a person who scares to make me angry and keep apologising.
if this person could always remain who is he.
then is he worth?

19`11`09

2009-11-19T22:33:00.002+08:00

arghh! i'm so saddd.
my earpiece officially pronounced dead this afternoon.
on my way back home, i took out my ipod.
and when i plucked into my ears, i realise my earpiece abit sort sort.
then after a whileeee, left side of the earpiece just became silent.
and i'm testing it again now.
=(((( really die le la!! =(((((

18`11`09

2009-11-18T22:16:00.002+08:00

had alot of ups and down recently.
because of eye candies.
right now, i only can say. HAHA.
我是开心的! =D

had been going out with KIM.
because PC is out in town and she needs somebody.
saturday went out for dinner and monday out to orchard central.

even though each of us are busy with our life.
no matter what, our heart still stick as one.
and of course, i felt very fortunate to have KIM, MF as my best sister.
is not only now but forever. <3

FYP mid evaluation making each of us turning nuts.
rushing here and there just to complete our stuffs.
but for us, we really dunno what else we can do.
and we have to submit our work by friday.
however, what can we submit??? i wondered.

trying my best now to take things more easily.
especially towards grades.
i will relax and do my best. =D
HAHA!

well, waiting...! =D

11`11`09

2009-11-11T00:34:00.005+08:00

getting lazy and lazy of updating this tiny space of mine.
simply there's nothing else more to share.
because facebook is my other alternative alr.

well. other than spending days sleeping and resting at home.
i was out last wednesday.
to expo and to bugis.
expo was a wasted trip because JOHN LITTLE SALES HAVEN EVEN OPENED!
bugis was to try on the shorts that geokchoo brought.
out with my lovely girlfriends.

credits to tee kim choo! =D

despite having lesson on thur and fri.
i was in the school last saturday too!
simply because i went to take a certificate.
very budgeted certificate which is not even laminated.
no leather books but just a white envelope when taking pictures.
super regretted to head down. wasting of time.
just the buffet is nice only! hahaha.

presenting to you three musketeers!!

my new classmate! Hwee Ling!!

haha.
that is the only time i took photo.
super lazy to take nowadays.

my UT1 is down for both modules.
seriously, i think i did really badly.
alot of mistake which i shouldnt have been making.
and alot of concept, even i should know.
eventually i still dunno.

hating myself to be in this kind of situation.
i felt kinda stress because i dont want this two modules to affect me.
affect my gpa.
super demoralise after the UT1.
i need to really pull up my socks for UT2 and 3.

working has more motivation this time round.
because of eye candiesss!
hahaha.
super alot okay.
but well, i think eye candy is just to see only.
see also happy la! hahaha. =))

03`11`09

2009-11-03T00:32:00.004+08:00

sometimes the feeling of being neglected is really ARGHHH!
when you see another person with another is so close, also ARGHHH!
it is just a feeling that most people will feel it.
however i dont wish to be the person to feel it that way MOST OF THE TIME!

haha.
yes, i'm jealous.
very easily to get jealous.
even girlfriends with other girls too.
i will feel so ARGHHHH!

when this kind of feeling come.
meaning PMS is right around the corner!
HAHA!

29`10`09

2009-10-29T23:11:00.002+08:00

alot of ppl say we have to plan ahead things.
"fail to plan, plan to fail"
i agreed to it but after you succeed the plan, what's next?
another plan?

last semester, what i plan to achieve, had achieved.
but the next step was to wait till i graduate.
and during this period, i was like a living thing without skeleton.
no brain, no heart, no feeling.
seems like school is nothing to me.
BUT! IT'S STILL NOT THE END OF THE SEMESTER!!

i'm dragging myself doing my RJ's, FYP, Powerpoint Slides.
seriously, compared to last semester me.
i'm TOTALLY DIFFERENT!
no motivation at ALL.
and seriously, i'm just feeling so sick of myself.

what i wanna do, seems cannot be accomplished.
alot of excuses each day to cover up my nonsense!
i want to get out of it, BUT!
there's so many BUT!
arghhhhhhh!

please help me return to my original ME!
i dont want to keep nua-ing.
i had enough and i want to do work!!

27`10`09

2009-10-27T00:07:00.002+08:00

i just find it meaningful because sometimes we really want to go back.
but we can't eventually.
so the only thing we can do,
is to move forward and look forward. =D

22`10`09

2009-10-22T22:35:00.003+08:00

okay, tmr is an important date to me.
but i have strong NEGATIVE feelings.
so if anyone got what it means, you knoww.
HAHA!

dont be surprised if i dont reply your texts.
cux i might be shedding tears at one corner.
because i think of $$ is flying away once again.
but well, gain experience i guess.

i felt fortunate when you guys encourages me.
just like receiving my O levels that day.
taking my theory test.
many cares and concerns.
especially encouraging words.
without you all, i think i couldnt make it.
from here, what i've learnt is abt true friendships.
thank you guys! =D

the key person in my life i guess is my mum.
her words really make me felt very happy.
seriously, if this time round i can make it.
the first person will tell is my mum.
cux i want her to be HAPPY.
just like when i saw my O level results,
her expression shows she proud of me.
that's why i wanna study well and let her be proud of me.
motivation = my mum. HAHA.
even she is like OMG, but i still love her! =))

okay, whether or not.
i make it.
definitely i will do my best and be careful.
HAHA.

JIA YOU JASMINE CHEW! =D

15`10`09

2009-10-15T22:08:00.006+08:00

i miss having coffee.
haven been drinking coffee since Monday.
even now i'm fully recover (i hope so) i still haven drink.
perhaps i need to kick off the habit.
so that i wont get dizzy once stopped drinking each day.

sleeping like a pig non stop.
i was down with sore throat and fever.
had to have the cough syrup that cause me to keep sleeping.
sleep till i dont feel like waking up anytime.

please wake meee up!
i've been slacking like nobody business.
ended neglecting my FYP!
and i feel so SHIT la!
i haven contribute anything lehhhhh. =(((
huimin, please keep buzz me if i didnt do anything.
i think i need someone to pushh me so that i can move forward.

tmr is Kimberly lesson.
hope it will be another "good" day.
*prayy*

13`10`09

2009-10-13T22:41:00.002+08:00

will blog soon once i've recover.

10`10`09

2009-10-10T22:08:00.002+08:00

it's the end of first week.
even though i only attend 2 lesson but i felt super tired.
was sleeping for almost 12 hrs which cause me to have bad headache.

convincing myself not to give up.
simple reason, got to pull that through and get out of it.
how much i do not like her, i still have to see her for the next 14 days.
she make me feel so inferior.
started whining to yahshi and huimin.
HAHA. i think they also can't tahan me complaining and complaining.
perhaps i'm just not use to her facilitating style.
prove her wrong is my motive for her next lesson now.

like the above picture.
it's just the beginning hence i will not give up.
since the end results haven even haven finalize.

08`10`09

2009-10-08T21:15:00.002+08:00

first day of class - Financial and Banking Application II

first meeting almost shocked me.
most of my classmates are very vocal when doing PDT.
it seems very competitive.
starting to get worried all that stuff.
well, it did scares me off.
now all i can hope or do is just BETTER.

super tiredd after first lesson.
actually after my presentation, my brain stopped functioning.
cannot listen or even think.
nothing comes into my brain but just staring of computer.
keep yawning like nobody business.

i think after slacking so many days,
mood for study is really less.
totally just want the time to pass quickly.
graduate with a cert
and out RP i go.
HAHAHA!

super tired.
guess i will be sleeping SOON! =D

08`10`09

2009-10-08T00:18:00.001+08:00

YES! it's my turn back to SCHOOL! =D
W65L! here i comeeee.
muhahahahaha!

guys, jio me for break alright!
LOVES!

05`10`09

2009-10-05T03:08:00.003+08:00

everyone is back to school.
and i'm here still blogging.
waiting for thursday to come.

i'm kinda afraid that i will slack too much.
will i?
and frankly speaking, i wish i can be back to school.
cux alone staying at home is bored.
i want to be back in class and enjoy with my friends!
i miss youu guys!

04`10`09

2009-10-04T00:32:00.006+08:00

sighhhhh*

if you didnt appear, can i just forget you this way.
or your appearance, makes me know you better?
i can't face the fact.
sorry.

03`10`09

2009-10-03T01:19:00.003+08:00

is just a piece of paper without money.
it will be good if there is complementary with money! HAHA!
well, that piece of paper, i really dunno how it will help me.
in future, my boss might not even care for it.
and for now, even UNI dont see it good enough because i'm from RP. (Republic Poly)
so? what's really the point?
i hope it really helps me without me knowing. =D

having 2 modules this sem might not be as happy as i previously think.
i felt more pressure than ever because i only left that 2,
so is either i do well or never.
is hard for me now even before i start lesson.
i alr felt so much pressure thinking that i might not do well.
as i started slacking in class because i alr got what i want,
and even not attending lesson because i alr don have mood to study due to 2days.
most importantly, there are better students than me.
so i might not stand a chance.

negative effects coming over me.
giving me great pressures which i hope i take normal route.
but now i could only control and keep telling positive stuffs to myself.
seriously, i hope i'm not going to be negative.
it will really drained me off.
not that i want to emo over here.
but i really feel pressure. =((

01`10`09

2009-10-01T23:47:00.004+08:00

dunno is official anot.
but this is my timetable.
thanks lo!
thur and fri.
i will be rotting like nobody business le.
how i wish they will change to tue and thur.
better! =X

01`10`09

2009-10-01T22:02:00.003+08:00

it's CHILDREN's DAY!
it been like quite a number of years i'm having it as holiday.
almost forgot there is such a day. HAHA.
time flies and i'm OLD alr.

well, suppose to be out to town today.
but due to my tiredness and reluctances.
decided to stay at home and rest.

i know i've promise quite a number of ppl for meet ups.
but eventually even when school is coming to the second semester,
i still didnt fulfilled it.
pretty sorry about it guys.
i know you all have been waiting for me to be free.
however, due to my pack schedule. HAIS!
really SORRY! 对不起!
i hope i really can fulfilled it SOON.

KICK OFF MEETING for FYP 2 starts!
abit sians when you have to start doing coding and SAD againnn~~
but well, with my great team mates.
i believe all obstacles will be overcome by us SMOOTHLY!
but first of all, we have to fight with the evaluators who graded us badly!
shit them lo!
pull down our grades.
0.5 matters to us leh!
idiot!
if we know, our faci will back us up.
i sure go appeal la. HAHA.
but all this is too late.
nevermind, i believe our G302 will be better! =D CHEERS!
and to my beloved team mates,
HUIMIN and JAMES! JIAYOUUU!

finally work is coming to an end.
and school is going to starts!
it's been quite a busy month for me.
but it doesnt seems to be very fulfilled one.
with shoppings! HAHA.

i'm waiting for allocation!
please not to be MONDAY or FRIDAY go school!
i hope to rest on this two days.
then it will really be GREAT!
HAHA.
pleaseeeeee!!!

alright, going to get some rest.
having bad headaches!
eating panadol to kill my spinning.
not the earthquake that shakes my head. LOL.

OH!
anyone who is interested for part-time jobs.
is working with ECCO company (selling shoes)
errr. can PM me for details! =D

01`10`09

2009-09-30T23:53:00.002+08:00

errr. i will blog tmr.
very tiredd.
and i'm having FYP meeting.
=((

28`09`09

2009-09-28T22:43:00.003+08:00

JUST THREE WORD!

I HATE LIARS!

dont ever try to lie to me.
i really dont like.
once you try to step into this line, i can seriously tell you.
i will have a defensive fence within myself.
if you dare, look into my eyes and lie.
i promise, i will fuck you off!

ps. don't ask me the reason and is BETTER NOT!
i will not hesitate to fuck you away.

26`09`09

2009-09-26T23:15:00.003+08:00

yesterday i felt like a STAR!
dunno why all choose yesterday to look for me.
HAHA.

i start work not long, MeiFong came over.
first to shock me!
cux really unexpected.
but also she came to look for me because her friend was late. =.=

about lunch time, HuiMin came.
she came because she got 2hrs of break from teapal.
and since is very near, she decided to look for me.
OKAY LA! better than nothing.
she accompany me for break! =D

after lunch time, these two girls PS me go out HAPPILY SHOPPING!
GOH GEOK CHOO & TAN EILEEN!
still dare to come over and look for me!
HAHA.
they say coincident meet up at MRT! LOL.
dunno is real or not.
but very happy to see TAN EILEEN la.
cux super long never meet up with her le. =)

then after they left not long, MeiFong return to say BYE to me.
cux after a long day for her, she is super tired.
i think her battery really flat.
so she tell me she is going home before she left.
great friends are like this! =))

HuiMin also came over after her work with her parents.
also say BYE to me!
HAHA!.

whole day busy with friends and i felt so fortunate!
seriously!
cux i have great friends such as them which really brighten up my day.
i'm so HAPPPYYY to see them.

i love youu guys! =D

因为我是幸福的!!

24`09`09

2009-09-24T23:32:00.002+08:00

felt kinda relief now.
grades are published in LEO.
finally, i can take a good break from RP.

i realised something about my grades.
the more familiar modules or subjects i've studied,
the grade will be lower than those i've never learned before.
just for examples, sales management.
i learned before some topics, yet i didnt do well especially in UTs.
but marketing, it's different.
i'm kinda surprised with the final grade that i've for marketing.
of course, overall i'm happy with the results.

finally, i can really relax for my LAST SEMESTER.
with 2 modules and fyp.
i dont want to pull the grades down, so i have to JIAYOUU!
if nothing happens to the final grade. =X
because it is not officially send to us by e-mail.
HAHA.

A BIG RELIEF!! MY AIMS HAD ACHIEVED! =D

22`09`09

2009-09-22T23:41:00.004+08:00

after 3 days of official rest.
next 7 days should be a torture.
not in physically but in mentally.
wake up early, came home late. =(

these 3 days, the most thing i did was to sleep.
HAHA.
cux having plenty of sleep is to replenish the lost i've made.
soon, no more rest period.
holidays coming to an end soon.
2 weeks more, it's very fast "fly" okay.

i hope this 5 weeks of holiday.
i did spend wisely. =)

well well, MISS TAN HUI MIN!
you came to look for ME huh today!
don't you know i didnt work!
HAHA. you old alr ah?!
youuu ahhhhh!~
this time not counted, cux i didnt see you.
LALALALALA!

i've to admit, now i like 超克7!
haha. just because of this song 我太笨! (thanks to 敖太 )
yes, emo song.
but sometimes, i have to relief out.
if not later i go crazy how?
HAHA.
enjoy the MV bah!

21`09`09

2009-09-21T03:23:00.002+08:00

went to watch "THE UGLY TRUTH"
it's quite hilarious.
but i find the story line kinda boring?
not much climax or i would say, expected outcome.
well with the other one, not very nice also turn nice.
muhahahaha. (*inside joke*)

奇怪。
这一次不知道为什么不害怕？
好像是学会了，不要太认真吧！
但好像很不因该这样。

我知道只是一下得寂寞。
所以没有真的认真地去思考。
少了一份的等待，就少了一丝的希望。
所以我才没有选择了等！
我现在是开心的。
因为我对于这一次，没有一份的期望。
好像真的学聪明了！哈哈！

这一次的结局会是我想的吗？
还是会有另一个结果？
哈哈！还是今天已经据点收场？
时间啊~~

haha. i think i've grown to be stronger this time round.
i'm seriously happy because i've learn a different approach.
it did turn out to be quite different from what i've expected.
but it's too early to conclude.
however, i've decided not to even wait but just take it normal. =D

顺其自然，还是最美的！

17`09`09

2009-09-17T23:11:00.007+08:00

okay, for the sake of HUIMIN.
i'm here to do some updates.
because she say i'm totally newsless.
HAHA.

after 4 days of work. finally TODAY is my REST DAY! =D
super tiredd lor.
especially when there's no ppl.
super sians and restless.
going to have good rest from SATURDAY till TUESDAY.
but after tuesday, i'm going to have marathon for a week.
dying soon. =(((

well. work had been occupying my life.
no time to even do other things.
time spending with my nephew also lesser.
haven been meeting up with friends or updating myself.
yes! i'm busy.

FYP2 is coming our way.
project allocation is out.
and i'm still with my project.
kinda sad because we are still comparing with the same ppl.
even though we really wish to change but still stick with it.
hope that this FYP2 will be a better one.
in terms in programming or even in presentation.
jiayouu team! =D

i hope time pass faster.

just something to share.
SUPER JUNIOR M new album with new song SUPER GIRL!
i think the dance is cute!
song wise.. i think i prefer 1st album.
HAHA.

10`09`09

2009-09-10T23:18:00.001+08:00

is there anything happen to blogger?
when i want to blog, the alignment had become very wierd.
i'm using firefox and opera browser.
hmmmm, what's wrong with blogger recently?

i've been resting for the today and yesterday.
tmr, i'm back to work again which my schedule didnt plan in the beginning!
boss sick, i take over.
michiam i very sui bian.
sighhhh*
it's quite sick when there is no ppl and no sales. =((
lazy to wOrkkkk ahh!~

我现在好像是把工作来填满我的生活。
只不想去想感情那一方面。
不是我想去想，而始终觉得我好像少了什么，感觉好寂寞。
就这样，我会想起以前的过去。
那一个我深爱的人，和我现在很想和他在一起的人。
但两个人始终都不会是我的。
可能现在的我不是那个拿得起放得下，对感情潇洒而目不关心。
我好像好固执喔！
真是的！

我真的希望那两个都会知道。
我很自私，我知道。
对于感情我没办法不自私。哈哈！
可是我也知道，答案不是我要的。
所以又不想让他们知道。
我好矛盾，矛盾到我不能的冷静地去思考。

我现在不知道该不该对我现在喜欢的那个说？
我喜欢他，我还是没法子放下。
希望他给我一次机会?
还是，什么多不要做，就继续的默默的喜欢他。
到我找到对的那个。
我不知道，也不想知道。
哈哈！

现在我真得很想低调。
就像张栋梁的低调。

"我的难过是如此低调因为不想打扰
我在寂寞的墙角努力的对自己好
你用微笑回报朋友或情人不重要
我的悲伤是如此低调傻子才会哭闹
就算你发现也好我想你一定会选择
假装不知道只怕我自己的掩饰不够好"

我只好努力的放下这一切吧！加油！=）

07`09`09

2009-09-07T23:35:00.002+08:00

做工是不是每一次都在等被骂？
我好像每一次都逃不过。
逃不过所谓的理由 "Reasons"。
对也不是，错更不是！
我真的是没有借口对自己再找理由说，是我的错。
累得防抗的力气也没有了。

两年多了。
该做得我以作了。
我现在真的只是像没有骨头的尸体。
更别说是心。
没有心的我,只是想几点放工,拿回自由!
我现在不在是那个很积极赚钱的我。
而是,及时我才能放下这份所谓的工作。

可以看得出来,我真的不开心。
每一天都在烦恼。
每一天都在想同一个问题。
但是逃避又不是办法,因为外面的工作真的是少只有少。
而我只能一直在同一个地方转圈。
离不开。

我只想开开心心的工作,这样也很难吗?
为什么就是会遇到小人呢?
小人真的是,"丑人多做怪"。
她是"小人怪又多是!"
又不能怪她,因为她不会想。
只能怪我"衰"!!

03`09`08

2009-09-03T01:32:00.003+08:00

HAHA!
well, blog is once opened to public. =))

thanks for those who cares abt my tiny little space over here.
i really felt so appreciated.
because it shows that you guys really CARE for me. =D
actually, i didnt invite anyone to read my blog.
my intension was to close and take a break from blogging.

you know my updates is pretty boring.
hence decided to shut down for a period of time.
however there cause some misunderstanding that i didnt invited ppl to read.
basically i just make it for me and myself since i cant shift my blog post.
haha.

alright. there isnt much things to update too.
cux i simply forget it alr.
now what i only can do is to update as often as i can.
i'm going to be a boring person, cux my life will be work and home.
nothing else. =((

think that's abt it for now.
guess will make a better update soon. =D

18`08`09

2009-08-18T00:10:00.004+08:00

seriously, there isn't anything i can blog.
life has been very usual other than feeling sick and tired of my current job.
it's like my blog have been sharing about negative stuffs.
which others will felt that i'm ~~EMO.~~
but that's isnt the true.
because i feel nothing about it.
HAHA.

well, UT3 is coming soon on WEDNESDAY.
most of us hate it because we need to really study for UT3.
for me, i think i just wanna do my best and get over it.
i wouldnt want to think of getting good grades anymore.
is super stress and competitive when you are trying to compare the results.
i felt super low morale.
hence UT3 will be more natural test like just previous UTs.

anyway, last friday went to watch 'where got ghost' movies with SEC BFF.
it's super FUNNY show.
even the animations that is being filmed is very FAKE.
well, that's jack neo.
haha.
but it's super super funny for me.
well, others find it lame.
i find that it's because they don have laughing sensation!
HAHAHA. =X
"ah huii~~ have you eaten?" LOL!

11`08`09

2009-08-11T23:30:00.005+08:00

"we ain't perfect, hence we can't please everyone"

i have this urge to blog this thing out.
not because i wanna fight something for a friend.
but i wish to let others to understand and know about it.

well, i've to admit that my MARKETING class is really a political place.
you dunno when you will die.
that's for me and some others VS another group of peeps.
just because we did something wrong which being categories differently.
definitely i'm sure that i was the first one being outcasted.

seriously speaking i really do not care what you all say abt me.
because what comes around turns around.
one day you will realise the reason of being such a way.
there must be a reason behind everything.
i do not do things without a reason.
i'm definitely a grown up now as i've already hits my 21.
i wouldnt have any other energy just to fight against all this.
because all i care now, is how much i've learnt in the class.

grades is something very important to certain people.
for me, YES!
i need grades to fulfill what i want in life.
to prove to others, ITE student is not the end but another phrase in life.
i can proudly tell you that i want to achieve DIPLOMA WITH DISTINCTION.
whether i can get it or not, is how my grades going to affect it.
hence, i really hope others will understand.
i'm not here trying to ~~HAO LIAN~~ myself.
is something that i want to achieve at the end of 3 years.
that's my goal.
and do you have any in the beginning?

it's really disheartening when you see ppl stabbing ppl.
it's very very common in the society especially in working place.
but what you will get at the end?
~~happiness? status? results?~~
you might not get anything in this.

perhaps is my wrong, perhaps is my friend wrong.
all we want to achieve at the end is a good grade.
you too am i right?
but some ppl uses different way, that's why we have conflict.
it's already the 14 weeks, 14days seeing each other.
but yet the hatred is so much that i felt so suffocated.
i wouldnt hate any of you guys in MARKETING class to be honest.
because what ive learnt from you all is to be more cautions in personal opinion.
most importantly, consider before i talk.

this is basically in my own context.
i dunno how many ppl will start commenting about this.
but all i can say.
it's time to reflect and perhaps give my opinion in what you think.
so that i'm able to change for a better person.
i'm improving each day so to become a better JASMINE. =D

09`08`09

2009-08-09T23:27:00.006+08:00

what's happening to blogger?
i realise tat i couldnt even blog photos out.
feeling damn shitty la.
i now only can just copy and paste URL!
SHIT!

wellwell, i'm really very glad that most of ppl came.
so many ppl came and i'm SO HAPPY! =D
thank youu so so much.
i couldnt list out the list of names la.
but all of you came, i really appreciate.
thank youu!!

so here's my photo session.
check it out,
i'll let photos do the talking.

welcome to JASMINE's 21st birthday CELEBRATION!
muhahahha!

CHONGZHENG PRIMARY SCHOOL!
13 years of friendship.

PASIR RIS SECONDARY SCHOOL!
1st shot!

2nd shot!

ITE COLLEGE EAST `` STUDENT COUNCIL!

REPUBLIC POLYTECHNIC `` year1 sem2 (W25Q)!

REPUBLIC POLYTECHNIC `` year2 sem1 (E66N)!

REPUBLIC POLYTECHNIC `` year2 sem2 (W66L)!

REPUBLIC POLYTECHNIC `` year3 sem1 (W67B)!

REPUBLIC POLYTECHNIC `` FYP TEAM MATES!!

BHG BUGIS BONIA!

MY COUSIN, 03/08 BIRTHDAY BOY! =D

handsome right?
heex.

ME WITH MY NEPHEW PLUS HOT MAMA!

okie.
after everything, i realise i didnt take with family.
my bestie.
mostly with groups.
kinda rushing with the cutting cake.
then forgot.
sighhh*
but nevermind, is my heart that remembers! =D

alright.
i haven upload my FYP photosession.
will upload soon and then i can blog it. =]
that's all for the moment.
i'm going to enjoy my LONG BREAK!

06`08`09

2009-08-07T00:06:00.000+08:00

GRRR!
i just now didnt save what i've type!
SHIT LA!
i have to retype all over again. =((
blogger! what happenn to youu recently! =(((

anyway, i'm tired.
i shall blog again tmr.
photos have to re-upload again!
damn shitty!
GRRRR! =(((

02`08`09

2009-08-02T02:40:00.004+08:00

it's 02/08/09!
i'm older than another year already!
and it's the year for KEY!
haha.

anyway, i hope to see you guys over there later.
shall see all of you alright.
of course, i do hope you all enjoy over there!
i will be super busy entertaining people.
hahahahhaa.

first of all, i would like to thanks.
KIM, MF, GORDON, PC for your gifts and counting down for me
i really like what you all have done for me.
super surprised and glad
didnt expect it.
i love youu guys so so much!
no wonder you are my good and BEST and TRUE friends!
hahahahaha! thank you thank youu!

anyway, see you guys later!
thank youu to those who is coming later!!
=]

27`07`09

2009-07-27T23:09:00.000+08:00

finally, it's all over.
reports and codes, time to say byebye for 6 weeks. =D
had alot of struggles in myself within this project.
luckily, i do have my lovely team mates with me throughout.
HUIMIN, EILEEN & JAMES.

have to thanks especially HUIMIN.
she has been helping all of us throughout this project.
codes and report mostly she is the one who is doing or editing.
it took quite some time for her to compile everything into words.
i really have to salute her, if it's me i will start crying or hugging my mum.

well, is just the first phase.
second one is not very far away from us still.
get that over and we are done.
soon i'm going to graduate. =))

for the time beginning, i will have to worry for my BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION.
it's hard to coordinate so many ppl to reply you.
and since i do not know how many ppl is going.
i really do not know how much to order.
have been getting headache over it.
especially when my mum starts to nag me each time.
it's my celebration yet i'm the one getting nag.
the feeling is super not nice but i just have to get it done by crook!
no more big celebration after this.
it's tiring.

alright, for today it will be this.
i'm super tired which i need sleep for now.
i just cant stand where my concentration is already limited.
there's more to update...

22`07`09

2009-07-22T23:33:00.009+08:00

5 more days to FYP Submission.
i'm going to have late nights!
but after this 5 days!
i'm going to have a good REST. =))

well,
he is the only motivation for now!

how can i not resist this temptation to look at him?
MUHAHAHA!
PARK JUNG SOO!

18`07`09

2009-07-18T23:47:00.002+08:00

busy busy busy!
3UT's in a week giving me big headache.
have to really rush through revising it.
plus have to continue doing fyp report.
plus have to worry for my 21's.
grrrrr.

well, dunno what to comment on UT2.
the most fear i have is for my marketing.
after the UT i only can feel "gone~."
for me, i have super no time.
and the explanation i give is simply too common.
i think i need to work doubly hard for marketing UT3 now. :(

fyp report have to be revise.
got quite alot of things for me in report.
because i don want to add on to my team mates pressure.
therefore, i have to quickly rush out of it.
but i don have the mood and motivation.
i'm really slacking as i'm blogging now. =X

21's is CONFIRMED at COSTA SAND PASIR RIS.
it will be on 2nd of August - 4 of August.
however the celebration will be on the 2nd of Aug.
if you have any intention in staying, do let me know.
i welcome you guys to stay over!! =))
will be sending messages out to invite.
if you do not received, just let me know.
i can invite you! MUHAHAHA. =D

alright. i know blog is getting more and more rusty.
but well, i have too many things to do for final year.
please bare with it okay.
do dropp by if you are free and nothing to do! haha.

13`07`09

2009-07-13T22:22:00.004+08:00

i think the POLL is like quite useless.
reason being, only 2 ppl VOTED!
well another words is that my BLOG had become RUSTY. =(
then i think i should close down sooner or later,
since lesser ppl viewing.

anyway, just some updates.
more or less chalet will be confirmed by tmr.
it should be in COSTA SAND PASIR RIS.
hence the one who voted for downtown, i'm sorry.
cux the price difference is just 8bucks.
i will rather choose BIG place de. =X

it will be held on 2AUG - 4AUG.
from SUNDAY to TUESDAY.
yes, i will be taking LEAVE from school.
hence if RP peeps you able to come to stay, you are welcomed OKAY!
of course my PRSS (Pasir Ris Secondary School) clique confirmed staying.
don worry because everyone is FRIENDLY DE! =))

i really hope more than 30 will turn up.
but if not, i also BO BIAN.
cux my popularity is not very high also.
HAHA.

just to summaries.

PLEASE BE FREE ON 2AUG for

JASMINE 21'st BIRTHDAY! (:

11`07`09

2009-07-11T23:36:00.001+08:00

arghhh!!
the first time i got C was on year1 sem1 communication module.
today, it reflects on my daily grade again.
and it's for SALES MANAGEMENT!
what the hell!

even though i might not answer to the RJ.
but at least i made an effort to try.
like this i rather never send in RJ lor.
sians! =((
totally EMOOOOOO!

today i slept the whole day.
from ytd night i slept at 2am then today wake up at 3.30pm.
wake up and eat then sleep at 4.30pm!
then sleep again till 6pm.
and i'm super tired and sleepy.
going to sleep again!

just now was webcaming with my bro who is now at NORWAY!
so cool!
haha.
and i thought my laptop going to hang.
but luckily, it was smooth throughout. =))

i still cant admit the fact la!
HOW?!
haiis.
somemore i really want to do well.
now it seems like my aim is further.
SIANS!

i want to wear the square hat!
can i? =((

anyway, peeeps who are reading my blog.
please give me idea on my 21's birthday.
tag me
thanks thanks! =D

09`07`09

2009-07-09T22:50:00.002+08:00

some results are out.
and even i'm satisfied with it.
but i still have to work doubly hard.
going beyond others.

i will blog more.
now no inspiration. HAHA!

09`07`09

2009-07-09T00:00:00.002+08:00

yes! i know 9 days didnt blog alr.
i will blog soon! =D

busy busy! FYP! =((

01`07`09

2009-07-01T23:12:00.000+08:00

it's 1st of JULY!
there is two important event happening in this day! =))

first! haha.
if you are above 21 years old.
check out your bank account!
there will be extra 200bucks inside your bank!
muhahhahahaha.
yes! it's SG government payout for GST OFFSET package. =D

second!
my beloved LEE TEUK BIRTHDAY! =))
wOooHooo!
i love him PARK JUNG SOON!

see!!
he is so CUTE!
can't believe he is 26 years old. haha.
anyway, 생일 박정수!! =)

30`06`09

2009-06-30T23:16:00.003+08:00

it's time again to share some news.
after the news broke out with the petition thingy.
our principal/CEO Yeo Li Pheow finally address certain issues.
well, i've just pick out the key thing.

i was just wanted to share with you guys what my faci told me.
my healtcare facilitator, Mr Soon actually tell us.
how many people can be really responsible for their own action.
if school will to close down, how many ppl will eventually stay at home?

you can say YES for now.
but re-consider it again.
will you REALLY stay at home for 7days?
not even stepping OUT of your house?

well, for me, i'm sure i cant
i will need to go out take a good breath outside.
unless i'm really under MOH quarantine, then i've no choice.
but now is just asking you to stay at home.
how many people will do that?

i understand that we will get this H1N1 eventually if we stay in school.
but well, i think and think again.
they are doing on behalf of the community.
spreading in RP is better spreading outside of it.
have we think of it?
i know the risk of taking it, is very high.
they are really playing on risk.
i admit.
but well, they have to do that.

i dunno is a right choice to help them defend.
but after understanding this situation, it's not really a bad thing afterall.
i know parents worry and all sort.
well, we try to understand in their shoes.
isn't it better for now to be more transparent?

i understand the point of view from RP.
i'm sure this issue very debatable.
well, everyone cant be perfect.
life have to go on even with this H1N1.
is going to be a long term fight.
well, just admit the fact that RP IS NOT GOING TO CLOSE DOWN.

just have to wait for MESSAGE to send to you if you want.
i don wish to have it.
cux i don wanna stay at home. =))

29`06`09

2009-06-29T23:13:00.016+08:00

WOW! REPUBLIC POLYTECHNIC is in the leading position!
within the community cluster, they are the TOP!
well done RP!
~~you've done us proud! =))~~

AS RETRIEVED FROM MOH WEBSITE on 29JUNE 2151 hrs

more and more confirmed cases.
everyday i'm going into the infected school with FEAR!
i see the potential that RP can hits up to 100.
if the school don't intend to close down.
even secondary schools also close down for the sake for student.
but RP?

well, if you are more transparent enough.
do you think we will ask you to close down?
we are no longer kids please. we understand situation.
that's RP learning point right?
problem based learning.
now we see problem.
what we need to find out is why school still dont close? =((

i'm very pity for RP.
they are now famous, but famous in the WRONG WAY!
no one is happy about how they handle situation.
if i got friends who wanna go into polytechnic,
i believes i will ask them NOT TO CHOOSE RP!
cux they RISK OUR LIFE!
they put our life at stake!

yes.
i'm whining like nobody business.
everyone does.
because we are not just ourselves but for the whole.
if you consider closing another week for 12,000 students.
please do so, take action to it.
if you do not want everyday news is RP have HOW how mANY CASES.

remember, you are now in RP SERVICE EXCELLENCE.
but it seems like "NO", you shouldnt be in that news.

27`06`09

2009-06-27T19:08:00.006+08:00

yes, i've been rather busy recently.
busy updating myself with H1N1 news.
seriously, i'm now very afraid of spreading this virus to OTHERS.
even though currently i might not have it.
but the chance of getting is very HIGH now.
cux confirmed cases in RP has bring in total of 36!
and one is near to my class!
we might even took the same lift please. =.=

with such a concern i have and so as my fellow school mates.
this is what RP has been advising us.

click it to see the bigger picture.

we are not spreading rumors around please.
we are stating down the fact.
and RP? what are you trying to deny from?
the necessary measures you take is NOT ENOUGH!

for me, i'm not worry that if i get, what will happen to me.
what i'm worry about is passing it to others.
especially when my house there is a baby and my parents.
so i really hope at least school can stop for a week for everyone.
there's no probability of saying year1 getting chance is higher,
and not year2 and 3.
because there is cases involving year 2 or 3.
let's minimize the spreading around in the community by stopping school.
isn't it being responsible for us and the community?

kinda freaked off with H1N1.
even wanteng was pretty worried about it.
ytd, i break the news to her which i'm really sorry abt it.
i guess she is now SUPER SCARED.
well, i hope it doesnt happen to her. =))

ytd went out to YUHUEY's 21 BIRTHDAY celebration at EASTCOAST.
meet wanteng up to buy her gifts.
then deciding how we should go over.
was pretty worry that we will end up late over at the chalet.
but well, we are the first to leave in PRSS group.
cux we can't click well with others.
for me i still can talk to Michelle and Cheau Yi,
others really CMI.
hahahahhaa.

luckily got yufeng with us.
if not we cant run away with it and have to stay.
well, we ended up going to 85 for supper.
i didnt stop eating and drinking for the whole night leh.
i think my weight have been increasing alot since holiday.
going to have some diet plan soon?
hahahhaa. i think i'm pretty lazy abt it. =X

well, nothin much to add on rather than just some grumblings.
if i will to prefer, i still like my secondary school friends.
they are the best because they know me well.
i can be who i am rather than just faking away.
can just shout out loud without people giving me faces.
can just quarrel because there won't be any strong rejection over.
for now, i wish more gathering sessions around for 21 birthday. =))

20`06`09

2009-06-20T01:15:00.003+08:00

i'm just too tired.
i need a space to think and relax.
give me some break.
i need fresh air.

17`06`09

2009-06-17T00:39:00.002+08:00

was blog hopping and happened to saw something very meaningful.
a girl was mentioning about how she and her bf last for 3 years.
and how they managed to get together.

normal couples will go through a stage of quarreling.
intention of breaking up.
but how we really handle it to make things last is another issue.

so she was saying that one must suffer and hold onto it.
well, question to ask is how many times can you handle this?
are you sure that the party will really endure?
will the party forgive and forget?
how many people can really do it?

i'm pretty sure i wont be able to do that.
once twice still okay with it.
but after several times i will not take all this nonsense again.
well, that's for me.

i was indeed really impressed on how they really maintain their relationship.
if it's me, of course is a failure.
that's why my relationship don't last.
it also depends on how fated it is and the situation like.

in a relationship, there isn't a right or wrong answer.
is whether you two are really fated to be together.

trying to think about my future.
whether am i able to take this and maintain it throughout?
how long will it last?
can i be a good girlfriend? (well, at least for now is NO!)
hahaha.
giving some thoughts about it.
but now, let nature take it's course.
no more hurry, no more silly.
just me, myself. =D

15`06`09

2009-06-15T22:48:00.002+08:00

back to school today.
well, holiday is never enough.
and i'm feeling super exhausted.
don't even have mood for presentation.
hahahahaha.

school connection was super lousy every first day.
everything seems down.
even my mood was pretty down in the beginning.
my new faci also blurr which make me feel quite bluee.

finally i decided to let it go.
really, my heart and my emotional seriously lighten down.
i felt really relax.
no more sighing so loudly.
haha.

some going UNI and one even going perth.
what about me?
going to start working or perhaps going for UNI too?
i cant decide, perhaps after my results then make the final decision.

goshh! feeling so tired.
yet still blogging.
okay!
i'm done with my entry.
good nites! =))

14`06`09

2009-06-14T23:36:00.004+08:00

this going to be the last time.
you going to be mine.
我傻够了。
就让这一切在这里到此为止。

i took a deep breath and sighh.
it's really heavy because i alr dunno what i can do.
i can't make you feel happy.
i cant do things that you are expecting.
make things difficult for each other.
hence, it's time to just let go bah.

your promise is still in my heart in my phone.
i kept browsing through because i thought it might happen.
but until today, the same thing we argue for it.
eventually the promise you make are just an empty promises.
what you hope doesnt means what you want.

我累了。
我不想再抱任何的希望，因为我怕。
我怕我希望越高，我会跌得很重。
反正这一切都只是这一两个礼拜的事。
当着什么都没有发生过吧！
回到我们原来的岗位，继续生活。 =))

the last time you going to be my <3prince.

13`06`09

2009-06-13T23:21:00.003+08:00

after tomorrow, school reopens.
and it means we have to go through another 10 weeks before HOLIDAY again.
it may seems long which i felt is SUPER LONG!
i hope 3rd year will end faster.
well, time do flies.
haha.

yesterday was a very long and hectic day for me.
woke up early morning for work.
after work have to go for supper with boss and colleagues.
after supper have another round of it with FRIENDS.
after 2nd round supper went to watch movie.
reached home officially 5am!

even though is super tired.
i really enjoy the day especially with my FRIENDS.
you know who you are.
i enjoyed myself really.
next time i will try to make myself free for the supper time! =))
but i dont want to keep the driver awake please.
very tough job.
MUHAHAHAH! =X

my BRO flying over to FRANCE for a week.
wah, he super good lor.
maybe after this FRANCE trip going RUSSIA for a month?
he might be working over there but well, he is enjoying at the same time.
isnt it?

GOSHH!
it's 11.32pm alr.
i need to get some sleep before i can't wake up tmr.
super super tired.
tmr going to be super awake to gossip! =))

babybaby..

12`06`09

2009-06-12T00:11:00.002+08:00

well well well,
work, fyp, sleep, rest.
cycles continues.

hate to say it.
but i have fallen in.
i hate the feelings i have.
i hate to be this kind of me.
because i can't control myself.

when it is going to be the last time?
sighhh*

05`06`09

2009-06-05T23:30:00.003+08:00

finally i've finished watching boys over flower!
woHoooOoo! super nice.
i'm going to catch it all over again once i'm free! =))

tmr going to be a super long day for me.
sighhh*
there's private sales and i'm going to work from 10am-11pm.
going to be super tired! =((
endure for MONEY $$$.
haha.

looking through the messages you sent.
sweet yet not real.
even though is not real but seems real.
HAHA!
i think you are really good in bluffing me.
isit time to put a stop to it?
unless you really keep your words like i say,
i will be yours.

05`06`09

2009-06-05T01:49:00.003+08:00

我不要再玩了！我可以承认我输了！
这一次好像玩过火，让我不直觉，觉得好像是真的一样。
我认输，我认输。你赢了。
不要再让我掉进去这一个根本不会实现的梦。
就在这里喊停吧。。
起码也要谢谢你，让我觉得很幸福。

02`06`09

2009-06-02T23:06:00.008+08:00

it's been such a LONG TIME!
super busy with FYP, work and currently BOF!
that's why dont even have time for blog.

super pissed with work.
i'm so exhausted, no strength to even rebut.
there's no point continuing when people just don respect.
seriously, i'm looking for new prospect for job.
but with such circumstances, it seems difficult.
especially those can meet my time,
more tough.
well, just have to keep a look out.

Boys over Flower is melting my heart.
KIM BUM! is super cute! =))))
of course KIM HYUN JOONG is the one who attracts all butterflies.
HAHAHA!
but the main point is, is super nice show.
every episode also crying. dunno why? just cry.
it's really touching.
please, go catch it.
it's really worth the time and value! =)))

FYP meeting today.
seriously wasnt in the right mood for it.
perhaps HOLIDAY is meant for me to rest.
well, FYP is more important hence no choice but to do in school.
HAHA. progression for others is fine but ME?!
4hrs plus i just do a login page?
can you believe it?
not my style of work la.
hahahahhaa!

wanna catch last few episode for BOF.
but i got work tmr and i need ENERGY to prepare for war.
currently for me, no point fighting for it.
but at least protect myself mah.
HAHAHAHA!

i think i've to take up driving real SOON!
mum really asking me dont waste time alr, start learning.
her words really matters but well, time is never enough.
i need plenty of time to concentrate.

i got photos wanna upload.
but well, no time to handle it la!
anyway, end with just KIM BUM's cute photo! =)))

<3 kim bum! =)

25`05`09

2009-05-25T22:39:00.002+08:00

i'm seriously down on LUCK!
yesterday sales was pretty bad despite having "SUPER SALE"
attention for lesson was limited.
even SALES MANAGEMENT UT also done badly.
WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME?!

i'm so down really down after my UT was done.
pretty upset about what i was doing.
somemore, no more 4 out of 3 UT's leh.
is ALL considered alr.
and seriously, i dunno what the F*** i'm doing at all.

after friday, financial and banking lesson.
where AMOS told me smth about the grades thingy,
i felt very stress up.
i hope i can do it up till there.
but i find it so hard to reach it.
so i tend to put on weights, expectation to it.
where i hope it can helps,
but seriously, i can't add anymore weights.
i'm so tense and everything seems so BAD.
i need to get a break out of it and really think about it.
whether i should let it go and be natural about it.
well, i think it's better to let go.
cux i can't take on any pressure that is within myself. :((
felt super restless. :(((

not in gooooooodd moood. :(((((((
super emoOOoo.
i need to find someone to give me opinions.
cux i now can't open myself and think out of the box.
i'm so stress.

20`05`09

2009-05-20T22:45:00.000+08:00

my little cute nephew has been abandon by my bro and sister in law.
he is going to stay over at my hs for the next 3 days.
i'm going to have restless nights. =(

doing FYP is really a tiring thing.
have to complete our job scope, fulfilled the requirements.
if we have a longer time, it should be fine.
school + fyp = no time.

i think some advisor is really stressful when comes to fulfilling the task.
that's why there are people who cannot take stress.
hence results to negative action.
i felt kinda sorry for the guy.
however, this is just a minor obstacles.
i cant imagine if he is going to be in the society.
what will really happen to him?
now just hope that he RIP.

yesterday is my turn to feel stress.
i have to do prototype and worried abt my layout.
that's my first time sleeping late when i'm having school term.
i slept at 2am last night and i didnt sleep in the bed.
BUT SOFA! omg.
having a real backache in the morning.

tmr is my happy day!
haha. it's SALES MANAGEMENT!
but i have to wear formal where that's when i 'm re-considering for school tmr.
SIANS!~ i just want to have a normal presentation please.

alright. i need to replenish my sleep that i deprive from last night.
good nites!

18`05`09

2009-05-18T22:46:00.000+08:00

seriously i think open-minded is very important in RP.
well, if you think i'm a person who likes to attack.
then continue to think this way bah.
not that i want to be in this way but in situation i have to.
if you think i so BO LIAO sorry, i don wish to squeeze my brain juice just for you.
i hope people do understand why i need to be in such a manner.
if i have a choice, i wont.
but too bad, i need TO, to survive.

first time i hate a class seriously.
i just felt my temper is going to throw out alr.
i first time scolded so much vulgarities in msn.
i totally wanna flare out.
i hope there is no more 11 weeks.
i just wish this class should end over here.

KAIBIN, please tell me how you ignore other's opinion?
i think i really need to learn from you again.
or i should not ask question and just shut my mouth.
if my grades don't affect, i will jolly well do that.
but well, fact plays me. i have to.
sighhh*

i hope our class can be fun but i don't see the lights anymore.

16`05`09

2009-05-16T15:52:00.000+08:00

whahahahah!
ok! everything is solve.
internet browser also can browse my blog alr NICELY.
no other problems! (:
well well, suddenly i felt so clever in debugging!
hahahahahahah!

i also have created the layout for my FYP!
sometimes having a day to do your stuff is really very good.
at least no trouble and worries and TA-DA!
finish the task in one day!

well. been really busy.
dunno busy with what also.
haha.

yesterday was HONKIE lesson.
seriously he give me motivation to get his grade sia.
finally after ytd i got my deserve grade.
FINALLY HIS EYES OPEN DAMN BIG!
hahahahaha.
i shall not bully him anymore. (:

ok. having chit chat session with MR GERMIN ONG!
no time for blog! (:

14`05`09

2009-05-14T22:31:00.002+08:00

i bet most of you guys face problems with my blog.
especially using INTERNET EXPLORER.
i will change a new blog skin SOON to rectify the problem.
even my opera browser today give me problem when viewing my own BLOG!
thanks alot man!! grrrrr!

i'm so so sorry for now.
if you really wants to read about my entries.
then please use firefox.
thank you for your understanding! (:

13`05`09

2009-05-13T23:18:00.006+08:00

post should be posted on 11`may`09.
but i dunno why i forgot to publish post.
hahhahahaha!
so below is the post on 11 may!

super exhausted!
had not been sleeping well recently.
last few nights, thunder storms freaks me awake.
and ytd, i just dunno why i cant sleep well. =(

i need some super energy thingy to really boast my energy up.
really slacking and i seems dont feel the sense of urgent-ness in our FYP.
kinda felt so 对不起 la especially to HUIMIN.
she's trying so hard to ask us to meet up.
but always got things cropping our way.
mostly the reason is me, cux work la. if not tired la.
if not 就是我不想.
真是抱歉!

well, i shall repay her back by doing our system well?
hahahaha. how abt that?
but before that, let me recharge for days! =X
whahahahahahaha.

**************************************

13`05`09

i'm DOWN with badd FLU!
it's like running tap water that couldnt stop at all.
and i'm feeling so drowsy especially my eyes is so tired.
so sickky please! ):

well, today got alot of my FIRST TIME!
i FIRST TIME eat subway.
i FIRST TIME go buy 4D.
i FIRST TIME start FACEBOOK.

whahahha!
so people, if you have facebook just add me ah!
same as my e-mail (if you know!) (:
and facebook thingy is thanks to HUIMIN and EILEEN TAN!
all syco me to start it.
and now i'm officially hook to Restaurant City!
THANKS AH!~

actually wanna go back and rest after FYP.
but my mum keep asking me to take my PDL now.
cux my final theory going to expire in 1 year time.
so she say go take and faster clear it!
so, i went to UBI and get my PDL.
i'm alr extremely tired but got someone makes my day!

haha.
so coincident that i saw him when i was waiting for bus.
then just nice he also going home.
but too bad, we are not taking the same bus back.
if not i will HAPPY TILL SIAO!
hahahahahaa.
at least i'm able to see him smile, i'm alr very contented. (:
BUT! after when i saw his facebook ah!
ahyah, i also dunno what to say liao.
hahhaaha.
going to emooOOOO~~

anyway, TMR will be a BETTER DAY!
cux tmr is SALES MANAGEMENT!
whahahahahaa.
my favourite! =D

ok. i'm going to swallow two panadols to stop my running nose running again!

10`05`09

2009-05-10T23:34:00.001+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

i love you MUMMY! =D

08`05`09

2009-05-08T23:59:00.000+08:00

finally it's friday again!
it means i can take a good rest the next day. (:
this week for me is SUPER EXHAUSTED.
i also dunno why.
feeling like sleeping and whole day my mind is BLANK.
at least for tmr, i can sleep like nobody business.

i think i'm getting use to HONKIE lesson.
seriously numb to it.
everyone sees the grading he grade.
it's totally sucks.
people complain about it and get better grades.
really have no comment to comment him anymore.
just one word to say him "LOUSY!"

happy things here!
anyway, really CONGRATS to you! (:
you might not be reading but well, just congrats you one more time.
don't always think you cannot make it or inferior compared to others
see! you made it to SMU!
i'm so proud of you.
haha! maybe when you come in to SMU, i'm your SENIOR? =X
well, i dont think i'm as lucky as you are.
hahahhahaa!

我只能默默地为你加油和给你鼓励。
我不要求，只希望你得到快乐。 =D

07`05`09

2009-05-07T22:59:00.000+08:00

getting some updates done and i shall go to SLEEP! =D
well, each day my energy life went lesser.
even motivation to go to school also not there anymore.
getting the desire results also NO MORE.
seriously, it's like no more feelings towards anything now.
i have to get back to feet but i need to adjust myself.
and it takes time.
for now, i'm just a body without skeleton.

quite a number of things to share.
first is EILEEN TAN!
i think yesterday she is damn super suay.
about time to go home after FYP,
her high heels spoilt!
she have to drag herself right from school to mrt station.
before that we have to do some plastic surgery to it.

haha!
saw that?
we took our RP sticker first to stick onto her slippers.
to secure her safety towards MRT station, i suggested PLASTER!
super useful i tell you.
at least she can reach home without another plaster.
most importantly, she doesnt want to waste money to buy another one
yet! she willing to spend on CAB! =.=
hahahahaa.
but at least i know she is super HENG!
so what's the morale?
please wear your high heels often instead of KEEPING IT!
LOL!

another cute and funny thing.
today i'm having sales management class.
this super cute classmate of mine called EDMUND is really BOYISH!
he really like a mummy boy who speaks like kid and his innocent look!
walao, really can't stand and to laugh at him.
hahahahahhaa!
because we are in the same team,
i took a chance to snap of him while he is sleeping.
and is the first team to present yet he SLEEP alr!

he is holding onto the SUBWAY SANDWICH TOY!
i think he simply love SUBWAY till he ate it every single day.
and AND!
he just so innocent when he look at us while we are laughing at him.
well, even he is like mummy boy, he is really smart! (:

HAHAHAHHA!
i think if SIEW HUAY were to see this picture,
she will laugh out loud.
we just cant stop laughing when i took that.
please, i didnt stalk him.
just take it because he look very funny when sleeping!
caught in action okay!

okay. i think that's for all.
need to have some rest.
because TMR lesson sure will makes me BOIL!
so i better go relax first. (:

05`05`09

2009-05-05T22:33:00.000+08:00

5th May 1980 was the day where GERMIN ONG was born.
well, in 5th May 2009.
there's JASMINE wishing him GREATEST HAPPY 29 BIRTHDAY!
just one more year, he is going to be in his THIRTY! LOL!
OLD UNCLE alr. haha.

two words to describe my feeling 'EXTREMELY TIRED'
i've too many burdens with me.
too many considerations
and too many thoughts.
it really ties me on and make me felt super restless.
coming 3 years in poly, first time i felt SUPER DYING.
i simply hope that time flies as fast as it could for NOW.

yesterday is my first time staying back till 7plus just for school work.
yes! it's my dearest FYP.
not to complain that i've to work till so late because of FYP.
is just the exhausted i have was extremely high that i couldnt take it.
and was surprisingly that quite a number of people also leave at that time.
love school for them? haha.
by the time i reach home, i'm already officially DEAD.
BRAIN DEAD!
i couldnt think much afterall.

i wonder how KIM, MF and I maintain our friendship?
perhaps we are in the same position level that we are comfortable with.
i'm very curious seriously that how we come till so far.
not everyone can maintain a 3 friends friendship.
SERIOUSLY! i bet there is some people who will be left out.
i mean we are too used to it. HAHA!

well, for me now.
i think i'm going through another cycle of it.
but different thing is that we are on different status.
and i'm not that kind of who goes gaga over certain things.
so might not be able to clique that well with other 2.
what can i say?
just another 1 more year.
cux i dunno whether this friendship would last.
perhaps after poly it will die off.

i'm not trying to be so negative.
but sometimes you just can feel it la.
you don want to say too much out of it.
but at the end you have to take it all in.
especially for me this kind who really TREASURE good friendship.

all i can say, get me a BOYFRIEND. (:
ANDD all this will be gone!~
HAHA!
yes! i'm 重色亲友 kind. =X

03`04`09

2009-05-03T23:14:00.002+08:00

i thought i can rest TODAY!!!
however it seems that SUNDAY is not meant for me.
I HAVE TO WORK!!
always got this last min changes,
and i seriously HATE it.
well, just tell myself MONEY IS COMING IN!
haha!

tmr have to bring thermometer.
so guys, please remember to bring it.
now we have to check our temperature twice.
H1N1, you really make people suffer. ):

01`05`09

2009-05-01T23:25:00.002+08:00

yeah! it's LABOUR DAY!
it means i finally get an OFFICIAL REST DAY!
wooOoOhOooOO!
hahahhaa.

well, it's been rather a long time i do a proper blogging.
reason behind is I'M SUPER BUSY!
there are too many things for me to do.
SCHOOL, WORK, FYP, FRIENDS, FAMILY.

it's second week of the school term.
seriously year 3 is not what i really expected.
maybe due to the change in time table.
FYP is really tiring and stressful.
well, my time management for this final year has to be BETTER. (:

OHYAH!
just to share with you guys.
my day 2 lesson have quite a number of cute guys. =)
hahahahhaaha!
that's my motivation to go to school each day and attend SALES MANAGEMENT!
my sales management facilitator also very FUNNY.
he give me comments on my daily grade.
"GIVE OTHERS A CHANCE LEH!"
the 'LEH' really make me laugh like mad.
and seriously this kind of faci makes my learning more interesting.

on the other hand my BANKING AND FINANCE APPLICATIONS makes me MAD!
i do have my expectations to meet.
the amount of effort i put in, i expect it in return.
however, the facilitator doesnt seems to see that!
i don't understand what the F*** is he doing at all.
most importantly, he doesnt know how to ask a proper question!
he do not know how to convince me but confuse me instead.
and always IGNORE OUR TEAM!
well, maybe he feel inferior, cux we are better than him! =D
muhahahhahaha!
don't spoil my mood talking abt him.
waste time typing.
haha.

after quite sometimes i ate SAKAE SUSHI!
last wed i ate sushi with my KIM, GORDON and LOH JUN MING!
haha.
had alot of fun and jokes over there.
i ate until i wanna vomit alr.
it's SUPER DUPER FULL!
after sushi, we went to TEA DOTS at TAMPINES ONE.
only SIMON brought drink and 5 of us sit down at there for like hours.
but we have a great gathering session.
i think we are really like a family after purecatalyst. (:

some unglam photos of LOH JUN MING!
hahahaha.

he is then the one who cannot convince you, confuse you!
whahahhahahaha!
but he is a good entertainer!

my FYP advisor is another thing to complain.
really BUAY TAHAN!
i dont understand what she talking about.
haha.
but i seriously hack care alr.
just do whatever she says is okay.
then LET IT BE!
cux we cant win her and she is the one giving us GRADE anyway. ):
have to treat her nicely.
shag* have many things to do especially USECASE SPECIFICATIONS.
i hate to do theory stuffs.
well, i have no better choice. ):

okay. i thing is better for me to get things done.
tmr i got to work and sunday i dont think i want to stay at home.
well, stay tune ahhh~ (:

24`04`09

2009-04-24T23:55:00.002+08:00

nO time!
i really don't have time to blog.
got so many things need to do.
especially for FYP!
usecase specifications, weekly log, check other's work.
wahh! really need alot of time.
but i'm busy working. ):
got to get out some time for real business!!

21`04`09

2009-04-21T21:12:00.004+08:00

SALES MANAGEMENT class is really.. COMPETITIVE!
most of the classmates are very outspoken and quick.
before i can say anything, they already say or asked.
it's really a new challenge to me where i've to overcome it.
i shall find a win-win situation. (: (if possible)

ZOUMEI give me this piece of information.

she add on by telling me those who had been awarded with this(RP CERT) ,
able to enter ANY COURSE (subject to approval or similarity) in any University.
seriously, it caught my attention.
but.. it seems very difficult for me to get it with current situation.
i shall just have to continue to work hard.
that's all.
cannot dream of it cux to me it's impossible. ):

wooHooo!
tmr will be my first time in RP getting wednesday(DAY 8) OFF DAY!
at least i can sleep slightly later and rest more.
1 year that i've waited, finally IT COMES! (:
i shall really take this opportunity to REST.
even though tmr there's FYP meeting.
but nvm, at least can sleep longer than previous.
hahahaha.

我是很容易满足的人! !

20`04`09

2009-04-20T19:56:00.004+08:00

YEAR 3 - first day of school!

well well, i'm not used to waking up so early.
even though is just a week away from job. =X
not used to carry heavy bags.
not used to sitting in the bus.
not used to looking at laptop.
so many not used to.
but eventually i have to get use to it. :(

i'm lucky that first day of school i got someone i know from the class.
previously for 4 classes, there's noone i know.
at least for the 3rd year, i got someone who i know. (:
yet so glad that i'm having the same team as her.
that's really great!
at least you wont feel so embarrass.
as compared to my year1 SEM2, is really different ME!

back to school is so tired.
need to wake up early and to end class late.
really need to go back to my cycle again.
no more late nights! ):

back to do RJ. sigh*