i seriously dont understand why it will happen.
it's really a very serious problem that we will be facing.
the confidence to you immediately drop to zero.
i dont dare to even think abt the future.
NO MORE HIGH HOPE! just nothing.


i'm a selfish person, i do admit.
when you sees smth very important to you, will you let go?
it's a bad time to me now, i cant afford it.
but you still dare to open your mouth and ask.


very disheartening feeling.
even how much i want to help, but i cant.
i just feel damn bloody pissed of.
with you and with myself.


indeed, i'm so ASHAMED.
i asked myself, why are you so STUIPD?
HIAS, it's really a bad day and bad month.
i just hope everything will end soon.
so sicked!

this is how i feel, at this point in time..!