this is the question i have been asking myself.
my dear lovely folks (yahshi & val) had been reminding that too.
but i really dunno what will be the answer.
and i wish that time will reveals the truth.


it's pretty hard to solve this question.
as i do not know how to prove it real.
moreover, it happened just a week or so.
hence i cant decide properly.
alot of negative comments i heard.
but i understand is the concerns and care you all giving.
i really wish to face the fact and just move on.
but it seems to stuck in my circles of life.
i hope i can just follow my heart.


all along, i was a da jie in their eyes.
but because of this incident, my status was being questioned.
yes, i have to admit that i'm not a good person when handling r/s.
that's why i'm always the one getting hurt and lots of bad stuff.
this is the side that i dont always show it out.
because i'm a proud person, i cant accept failure.
well, but i only can say.
please trust me that i know what i am doing.
because all i need is your confirmation.
even if it's wrong path that i choose,
let me be the one who face it.
no matter what, your advice will be heed by me.
and i will put a stop if necessary. okay?

(sorry yahshi and val, i just cant control myself! HAHA!)