this 1 week,
i did rest alot.
get enough sleep.
very soon, school going to start again.
life going to be busy as usual.


went to attend funeral this few days.
hmmmm.
what can i say?
is like another gathering for everyone.
is been quite few years i went to visit them.
i wanted to go there often.
but my mom is like... busy?


i love to go there because i can feel the love in the house.
no matter how busy they are, Saturday would be their family day.
going to their mother house and have dinner.
as a children when i was young.
i always get neglected because my mother went out to play majong.
therefore i love being in a big family,
where i have many big sisters and aunties love.


even this time is attending funeral.
but i still thinks that their family bonding can never be replaced.
even though this might be the last time a big family will come together.
but their love for each other will not stop.


just like me, treating all my cousins, relatives with all my respect and love.
perhaps there might be some angry moments.
but i really hope everyone can come together as one.
really love each other.
even though it might never happen.


today i met one of my cousin.
can you believe it, is like years we really talk.
after my aunt passed away,
i have never have a good chance to really talk to him.
now i can,
i've got his msn, phone number.
i can just call him and ask how is him.
do you know how much i miss this cousin of mine?
and so as my grandmother, my relatives and my mother?
not being able to know how his life.
every single thing happen to him.
we dunno.
now, i hope i can find back all the lost kinship in us. (:


/*/
you know,
so many years we met before.
we turn out to be together.
we fought.
we cry.
we lost each other.
we became strangers.
in the future.
can we meet again?
can we quarrel again?
can we cry together again?
can we not lose each other again?
so many so many.
when can i totally forget you.
being alone in the lonely night.
i couldnt resist in thinking of you.
what else? because i really in love with you. /*/