yesterday i went to attend a wake.
it's actually my uncle, my real blood uncle.
because he had lost contact with us for like more than 20 or 30 years,
i didnt see him before nor his family.
till the day that they called and my parents realise that they are staying at sengkang.


at first there are no feelings when attending the wake.
as i do not know him nor his family.
the place was so quiet too that i just felt uneasy.
all i went there was just because my father asked me to.


before i left the wake.
i was shocked when i see what happen earlier.
my so called cousin pass out when she was praying.
the moment i saw it,
my eyes turn wet.
all i felt was the love and sadness that my cousin have in her.
she couldnt accept her beloved father had passed away.
i heard from my dad that she had not been eating and sleeping for the past few days.
she had been doing all sorts of things from day 1 till day 3.
i really pity her.


it struck me heavily.
i was wondering what happens if my close ones just gone like this?
how would i feel?
how will i react?
what i will do next?
i really wonder.
i do not want my close ones to happen anything.
i just want them to be with me all the time.
but i know when your time is up,
you cant do anything but let go.


i reached home,
i saw the news about the Si Chuan tragedy
i couldnt control my tears when i saw parents crying, bodies being squashed and etc.
this images really makes me think about my life now.
i'm happily studying in rp not worrying that the next moment the building will jus fall off.
but when i look at the Si Chuan tragedy
they are really poor kids which because of their natural disaster.


what i get was,
treasure all your love ones now.
don't wait till anything happens then realise their existence.




and pls help those needy people.
most importantly pray for them.